Salam,
There is a difference between "not liking" and "hating" so why do you "hate" Allah ? How can you have bonds with Him and obey Him and ask everything you need from Him and still hate Him ?
You said you don't want any rewards of Allah ? What is "a reward" for you ? You have fingers to type on the keyboard... Isn't it a reward ? You can see, you can hear, you have tools to do research and learn about Quran and Allah and His prophets, angels etc. Aren't they "rewards" for you ? Do you take them for granted ?
"There's nothing in the Quran that's says you're supposed to love him, right?" you asked, it isn't right... Just check out 2:165, 5:54, 89:28 and many others. If you love anything/anybody more than Him, think about 29:25... And generally think about 9:24... But don't be panicked or upset when you read them, just ask Allah swt to "help you" love Him. Try to remember 60:7 all the time. He has power over all things, hearts are no exception.
I think, you should have deep "thinking" sessions about what you have (anything materially and spiritually) and why you choose to obey Allah with you heart and yet hate Him. If you hate Him, I wonder who is better than Him for you to love ?
I would like to know what caused you to hate Him but if it's not too personal, then I'm sorry to ask.
By the way, I'm not judging you. I'm not. If I sounded judgmental I apologize for that. I'm just trying to understand your thoughts by asking you the questions I have in mind.
Peace.
There is a difference between "not liking" and "hating" so why do you "hate" Allah ? How can you have bonds with Him and obey Him and ask everything you need from Him and still hate Him ?
You said you don't want any rewards of Allah ? What is "a reward" for you ? You have fingers to type on the keyboard... Isn't it a reward ? You can see, you can hear, you have tools to do research and learn about Quran and Allah and His prophets, angels etc. Aren't they "rewards" for you ? Do you take them for granted ?
"There's nothing in the Quran that's says you're supposed to love him, right?" you asked, it isn't right... Just check out 2:165, 5:54, 89:28 and many others. If you love anything/anybody more than Him, think about 29:25... And generally think about 9:24... But don't be panicked or upset when you read them, just ask Allah swt to "help you" love Him. Try to remember 60:7 all the time. He has power over all things, hearts are no exception.
I think, you should have deep "thinking" sessions about what you have (anything materially and spiritually) and why you choose to obey Allah with you heart and yet hate Him. If you hate Him, I wonder who is better than Him for you to love ?
I would like to know what caused you to hate Him but if it's not too personal, then I'm sorry to ask.
By the way, I'm not judging you. I'm not. If I sounded judgmental I apologize for that. I'm just trying to understand your thoughts by asking you the questions I have in mind.
Peace.