Salam ZKAB90,
The information you stated about jinn in people's souls is from a hadith. It's probably not true, so no need to worry
Just because you insulted Allah once, that doesn't mean you're beyond hope. You're obviously feeling sorry for what you did, so just make sincere repentance. Verse 7:180 is only talking about those who mock God and don't repent. As Seraphina stated earlier, God forgives all sins.
"Say, "O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning], do not despair of the mercy of Allah . Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful."(39:53)
If you're having trouble believing in angels and such things, keep in mind that God created the universe. The universe itself is quite fascinating and unbelievable. But God, clearly, managed to create it--and He can create whatever He wants to. If He wants to create angels and jinn, then He can make them.
You said you were raised an atheist. That's probably part of the issue. I'm just wondering, how did you find out about the Quran and all this?
I hope you figure this out soon
Aleikum salam Mariyah;
Well, atheism is a paradoxal phenomenon at my experience because:
a/ is atheism which keep me away from all the religious claims but
b/ when I hear about scientific miracles in the Qu'ran I quickly interested into. No one had really really really impressed me but numerological ones surely they have. Look here:
http://www.harunyahya.com/tr/works/47517/Miracles-Of-The-Quran---volume-3/chapter/14369/Mathematical-miracles-of-the-Qur%E2%80%99an-Part-1to
the ratio of the sea to the land and
Unlocking the Quran code by Elardi Bouqtib, a follower of Rashad Khalifa
http://realquran.net/resources/unlocking-the-quran-code/46-unlocking-the-quran-codebyelarbi-bouqdibSo, Islam (the real one, no the Hadiths-shaped, although without Hadiths we don't know how Muhammad lived) is the true religion because:
a/ is an atheist one religion --> it
destroy all the illusions, the false gods, the capitalist celebrities which TV and fashion want to believe in;
b/ and at the same time it is a no-atheist religion one because it teach us into the real God.
Nevertheless, and despite all this philosophical stuff, I feel trapped into the primary atheist belief, I can't reach yet the next step, the
magical-world (angels, jinns, etc) which exist in a different dimension (it can be at the same time in the our dimension, like a parallele on).
Allah guide who He want....